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12:07 AM
As I walk towards SCC today, I saw the same elderly couple whom I saw a few days back. The old man was riding a bicycle with the old lady sitting on the rail of the bicycle. The old lady was talking happily to her old partner while the old man listen, his smile subtle but visible. What a beautiful sight!! To see them so loving even though they have obviously been together for many many years, it is so encouraging and one just can't possible not feel happy and touched by them... If I'm able to grow old just as gracefully and blissfully like them, it will be my greatest fortune...
After DMK, we went to celebrate Hui Hsien's birthday at Jurong Point Pizza Hut (AGAIN!!) with Ben, Bin Bing, Julius, Fuyuan, Yong Kang, Peiyih, Limin and two of Hui Hsien and Limin common friends. I think one is called Xiao Fen, if I didn't remember wrongly... hehe! Blur-blur Peiyih forgot to bring the earrings I bought for Hui Hsien! Really sotong leh! Haha! During the meal, instead of focusing on Hui Hsien, everyone is gossiping away Limin's rumoured beau!! One day, I'm gonna be a Ba-Gong and go NTU to see who is that guy who make our Limin go ga-ga! Mwhaha!!
Surprise of the day--- seeing Leona at SCC today for DMK! Its being quite sometime since I last saw her, so very happy to see her not in too bad a shape. And she wore the slipper I gave her! So glad that she like the slipper and that its useful to her. Hope to see her more often at SCC and that she can cope well with her exams. I realised that although its suppose to be NTU's exam DMK, I've been a regular there more than most of the NTU student!! Haha!! Crazy man... I hope that my effort will have a positive effect on every NTUSD members in their up-coming exams, no matter how small the effect may be.
11:41 PM
Roy invited me to be a guest blogger at his blog(see link) and I've to say I feel so honoured to be invited. It will be a great experience and an additional chapter in my short blogger life. Thanks a million Roy!! I will begin my new identity as a guest blogger on 14 Nov, and it will last for a week. I hope this will give me the opportunity to exchange ideas with other bloggers. Stay tuned my friends and comes 14 Nov, pls do support me!! HeeHee!! I have not decided whether to continue with my own blog here while I guest on Roy's blog. Maybe I can keep both simultaneouly? We shall see...
I've made a decision to keep blog on any happening at work to a minimum. Unless there's some really, really, really drastic or of extremely happy incident, which I die die also must say, I would like to keep my blog here free of work-related stuff. I think this is a form of respect that I should give to my employer and also not to bored YOU with my daily mundane work.
Nat's luck just get worse and worse. Not only does she have to re-take the whole Accounting B module, she now also have to re-take the Marketing 2 module too cause the school does not accept her MC as a condition for deferrment. In another words, she is considered to have failed Accounting B AND Marketing 2. Damn!! That's another extra $2100 more that she needs to fork out to complete her Diploma...Blood-suckers!! I feel for her and hopefully she won't struggle too much for her next semester.
11:57 PM
First day at work. I know its never accurate to judge anything based on just one day of working experience, but I'm optimistic that it will be an enriching and happy working experience. At least I will try my very best to make sure it does. So far, I only have one complain... the food there is way too expensive!! A packet of mee goreng cost $6!! Kaoz!! Luckily I brought lunchbox to work today. Apparently, the cheapest food is the yee mee which cost $4... I rather eat bread everyday...
Went DMK at SSC after work. We were discussing about study stress (Haha!! I'm the only one in the room beside Calvin not feeling it at the moment >.<) when Calvin shared his experience when he was an NTU student. As always, when Calvin is sharing his experience, it tends to drag, but I dun really mind. Its always interesting to listen to others life story. Calvin also bought han chee peng for all of us. Thanks!!
After DMK, went to dinner at a coffee shop nearby with Calvin, Julius, Suresh, Limin and Hui Hsien. I'm not sure about others, but I'm definitely not going back there for meal!! The food SUX!! Okay... its a bit unfair. Let me repharse; THE NASI GORENG SUX!! When Limin and Hui Hsien left, I had a dialogue with the rest. That was when I brought up the subject about receiving Gohonzon. This matter had weighing in my mind for quite some time. I feel that I'm now ready to receive and protect Gohonzon but its currently impossible to enshrine it at my house, especially with me planning to go Australia to further my study in the near future. That's when Calvin brought up the possibilities of receiving Omamori. I gave it a serious thought and I feel that its the best solution. So, there you have it, I'm gonna receive Gohonzon!! Now the only thing left is to decide on the date. Calvin said this Sunday is still a possibility if I want, or else the next date will be next month. Actually I would personally prefer it to be this coming Sunday(receiving Gohonzon together with friends like Dave, Hui Hsien and Marcus will be cool) but I have problem with raising the money for the donation needed. My pay is definitely not gonna be out on time. So I guessed it will have to be next month...
11:14 PM
To dear Joey:
Thanks you! What you did touch me tremendously. To know that someone cares means a lot to me. Thanks for the pat on the back!! Its heartening to know that there are someone out there whom can relate to what I'm going through... I know I'm not alone because I have you and all the great friends around me. I'm still in the midist of recovering but I know I will able to stand up again because I'm surrounded by love, care and concern by friends like you. You're right, I should be collecting victories so as to share with that 1 girl when she comes along. Meanwhile, let me share my joy with each and everyone of you. I may be collecting victories for myself and for her, but it is with friends like you that helped me with my collections. Having you as a friend is in itself a victory!! I know very well, I'm enriched not just by physical possession, but also the people around me who shaped me into a better being.
A grateful Mudskipper
2:42 PM
Friday Night-- Went to TSC and attended the concert by Yo Kano. Awesome!! I'm always in awe with these talented musician like Yo Kano and Nestor Torres. Their music can really touched people's hearts and I'm really envious of them to able to put up such magical performances on stage. That night, Yo Kano performed two of my all-time favourites pieces - Somewhere Over The Rainbow by Ray Charles and What A Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong. Although the way Yo Kano presented these two pieces in a distinct different style as compared to the original singers, it is in no way inferior to them. Love it!! Later after the concert, we had supper over at the coffee shop opposite TSC. Ordered hokkien mee but because Limin ordered wrongly, I take the initiative and exchange her Yee Mee with my hokkien mee!! Luckily the Yee Mee isn't too bad!! Haha!! Calvin, Julius, Farrand, Enuice, Hui Hsien, William, Red, Wen Sheng, Huifen, Lionel, Yuan Dong, Marcus and a lady whom I do not know her name were also there at the supper session. Fuyuan was also there but by the time he came, we were already on our way home. And talking about going on our way home, when we reached the MRT station, we realised we just missed the last train back to Boon Lay. So in the end, me, Red, Julius and Yuan Dong had to share a cab home. This is probably the 2nd time in my whole life that I missed the last train...Darn! Haha!!
Saturday-- Went out with Jeremy, Caiyan, Huiwen and Xiao Xuan to Jurong Point's Pizza Hut to have our little farewell party for Xiao Xuan who is going back to Malaysia for good. Will miss her a lot. She had been a great colleague and friend when I was working at Teck Wah. I can still remember us cracking jokes at one another and guessing qian bian wen ta ti while we were working through the late night OT. She was also the one who first brought me to a ming ge cang ting, where her sister was one of the finalist at a singing competition held there. I also remember the countless sms we sent each other to encourage one another as she go through her dark period of a failed relationship and unhappy working experiences while I'm struggling at the first few months of my studies. Memories which will be kept forever in my heart. As she went back to Malaysia, I wish her all the best and may she find a guy who is more deserving of her love. Although we will be seperated, I'm sure we will still be keeping in contact and will definitely gonna meet again in the future. Farewell my friend!! I'm gonna miss you!!
1:49 PM
Cheers!! I'm found a job!! Went for a job interview today at Tuas and was selected. My new employer is called Britoil Offshore Service Pte Ltd, a company providing towing, anchor handling, pipe transportation and salvage requirements service. I'll be working as an temp account assistance for 2 months. Although it may not a perm job which I'll be utimately seeking, this job will provide me with the necessary exposure I'm looking for which will no doubt improve my CV. Moreover, there is free transportation provided to and fro from my home!! Will be able to save at least $100+ a month in transport fees. Hehe!! Hopefully I'll able to adapt to my new working environment fast and learn as much as possible for this period. Who knows, I might be offered a perm position after my contract?!?! And it is so near SSC, I can still go Daimokukai. Best of both world!!
Lydia's boyfriend, Alloyius went for a interview at Lee Hwa Jewellery and was told that he has been selected. With this in mind, he submitted his resignation to his current employer, Opra. However, the unthinkable, and may I add, irresponsible thing happened -- Lee Hwa called him and told him they decided not to employ him instead. WHAT THE HELL!!! Can't believe there is such an unprofessional employment practice by such a well-known company! Apparently the reason they gave to Alloyius was that they did not realise in the beginning of his lack of paper qualification!! Shesh, were they BLIND or DEAF when they were conducting the interview?!?! It wasn't as if Alloyius didn't inform them of this! Wonder if there are grounds to complain to the MOM... Anyway, luckily for him, (he certainly deserve that luck!!), he was able to find another job very soon and will be starting work at Soo Kee Jewellery at Jurong Point Branch. Looks like we can have dinner together quite often liao! Haha!!
Limin is having her presentation tomorrow. I know she is working hard reharsing her presentation. However I know she will be able to do well. Wish her all the best and I'll be chanting for her success.
My prayers have been answered,
But I shouldn't be complacent.
Cause the strength of one is built,
Never though success and good fortune,
But through failure and hardship.
When the day comes,
Where my bad karma manifest itself,
I'll know that will be the cue,
for me to show and build my strength.
7:37 PM
YEah!! A new blog... well sort of, with the new design and music compliment. I admit all this isn't my creation and credits have been given to well the "thanks" column. These guys are genius!! But being a web design moron, it took me sometime to get this new design up-and-running... A great lesson learnt anyway for me!!
My interview today has failed... It went to the other girl whom I never get to see. I really like the job... It has all the things I looked for in a job. Convenient transport, good pay, and most importantly, a job which give me the kind of exposure I craved. Well, I kinda of expected it when the interviewer's response became lukewarm when she knew that I've no experience. As much as I tried to show my enthusiasm in this job, experience is still what the company utimately seeks. Although I'm very disappointed, but I'm not down. I will keep looking and not lose confidence in myself. And, I would like to wish that girl who got the job ahead of me: Congratulation and All the Best!!
And of course, Happy Birthday to Red and Guowei!! Wish Red all the best in his up-coming exams and to Guowei, hope you recover from you illness soon and back to your LL style!! Haha!!
8:56 PM
Went with Lydia yesterday to school, hoping to get some news about our cert and application for 2nd year university. But of course, our 'dear' student service executive Jolene is not around, as always... The sadder news is that Nat wasn't given the conditional paper because she had another deferred paper in Marketing 2. That means she have to re-take the Accouting module again!! Another $1000 buck wasted... Oh, and before we went to school, we went makan at the Amoy Food Centre. Wow, the Yu Sheng is so damn shiok!! Definitely going there again the next time. Finally a good makan recomendation by Lydia!! Haha!!
Later went to Far East Plaza and shop for HH's birthday present while went home and prepare to go work for British Club. Crazy workhorse, finished work in the morning and still moon-lighting as waiteress at night!! Anyway, shopping is so shiok!! Been a long time since I last go shoppping alone and who ever says shopping is a therapy only for gals, I'll said you're so damn wrong!! I enjoyed it!! (And pls, I'm a 100% male who love girls, preferably with sexy back!! Haha!!) Bought 3 pair of earrings for HH and hope that she will like it. In case she does not like it, I shall give them to others then!! Later, on my way back home, go and visit Alloyius (Lydia's Dear) and see how he's doing. Business is bad, from what I've seen. But at least I thought I saw a customer after I left. Maybe I bought luck to the shop? Haha!!
At night, I started to seriously source for chalet for NTUSD. The Aranda Country Club, whom I thought was unafforadable in now within our range since I later known that Peiyih's mum is a NTUC Gold Card member!! Yeah!! Lotsa thanks to Peiyih!! She had been of the greatest help in assisting me in organising this chalet. Later, to get response, I started the Yahoo Group for NTUSD. Was surprise nobody started it in the beginning. Well, at least I contributed something to NTUSD!! Haha!! NTUSD frenz, pls go to your Junk Mail and check the invitiation! Yes! Apparently they think my creation is junk!! Shit them!! Haha!! At least now every thing is going to plan. All I need now is a good response and of course source for our party food. Undecided yet will it be BBQ/Pot-Luck or Buffet. Sihui suggested BBQ while I personally and Peiyih would prefer Buffet. Maybe when the chalet is comfirmed, I will post a poll again in Yahoo Group. All in all a good and productive day. The only sour note is Nat's situation and Arsenal losing to West Brom 2-1... Haiz, when will Arsenal's rot ever gonna stop... We miss Paddy already...
10:58 AM
Woke up sudddenly in this middle of the night, feeling a sense of emptiness in me. Today is suppose to be a day(night) where I should be celebrating a exam well done, but somehow, after the initial joy since knowing my result, this feeling of emptiness slowly and unawaringly sets in... Only now then I realise why this is so. I might have accomplish something really important in my life, but there is no one I can share this sense of joy with. No one's there to give me a pat on my back, no one's there for me to say "I did it... because of you", no one's there whom I can give a big bear hug to... Ever since I've decided that I should put matters of heart aside and immense myself in work and studies and friends, I have been creating personal victories along the way. However, what a great irony that on the day I've accomplished my greatest victory to date, it suddenly felt that all this efforts and sacrifise is not really worth it. It felt lonely, empty, like seeing a oasis in the desert. You sense joy but when you realised that its just an oasis, you get the feeling of despair and disappointment. For the very first time, I've doubted if I've made the correct decision. Probably its not even my choice, 'cause ever since that fateful day, I've probably lost my capability to love and commit. Every success comes with a price. I'm just not sure that whether if it's a bargain that I've got in hand, or a rip-off that I've never realised ...
痛苦与悲伤,
用工作来麻醉。
失望与难过,
用笑容来掩饰。
虽然得到了胜利,
却用了爱来交换。
成功的喜悦,
该和谁来分享?
胜利的拥抱,
将由谁来接收?
一切看似完美无缺,
无暇的背后却是伤痕累累。
后来才了解,
麻醉得到一时解脱,
醒来之后却依然会痛。
之后才明白,
掩饰可骗过全世界,
却瞒不了镜子里的我。
伤痕是时间的验证;
完美是空虚的面具。
当一切归回到零点,
赤裸的心将无处躲避;
一颗心非常清楚,
失去了你,
赢了世界又如何?
3:12 AM
Yes!! I've finally completed my Diploma course and can now go ahead to Monash University 2nd year!! Soooooooo relieved that I managed to pass all my modules!! No more Law and Marketing and Statistics nonsense!! I can finally concentrate on what I love best --- Accounting!! Although I'm not fully satisified with the result, (I only got a distinction and 3 credits... Was hoping for a few high distinction at the start of the exams...) the fact that I fully passed is something I'm still grateful of. The surprising result has to be Law and Statistics. Was actually hoping for a just a pass only, because I failed Law before and Statistics is so freaking tough. So happy to get credit instead of just a pass. Accounting is the disappointing one!! I'm only 4 points away from a high distinction!! If only i was given 10 more mins to complete my last question(which worth 10 freaking marks!!). At least its a weight off my shoulder. And now I can add to my resume that I have a complete diploma cert. Hopefully it will be aid me in my search for a job.
Congrats to Lydia too!! She got a high distinction for Statistics (FREAK!!!) and a distinction for Accounting and a credit for Marketing 2. Yeah!! It means that we can really study together!! Haha!! And if things go smoothly, we might become colleagues very soon... Just applied for a job at her company in the loan department through her recommendation. Hopefully they will consider me for the job.
Nat failed her accounting... Feel sorry for her. But at least there is still salvation in that there is still a 2nd chance of a conditional paper on the 19th this coming week. Will assist her in all my capabilities if she needs any help to clear the paper.
Mursh, as always, passed all her modules too!! The most hardworking girl in our class, I think that is the least we expected of her. Congrats Mursh!! Hope that you can go to Caulfield. I'm sure your grandmother will be smiling for you in heaven... So sorry that I didn't know that your granny passed away last Friday and was unable to send you my regards at earliest possible time. You're a strong individual and I'm sure you will get over this sadness and look forward positively in life. Go girl and stride forward towards your dream. I'm looking forward to seeing you in Australia come 2007!!
As of now, Steph and Joseph's result is not out yet. I hope that they will do well too!! And Janice!! Can you pls reply my message to you?!?! How did you fare? I'm concern about you too!!
11:27 AM
Today's Newpaper published extracts of the notes found on Madam Yap Cheng Chui's body, the mother who cause a buzz in Singapore when she committed suicide together with her two young daughters tied to her with red strings. Below are the extracts of the extracts...
My heart is broken
And shattered into pieces
When you say
She is the most beautiful
and most charming girl
My heart is bleed with black blood
When you say you don't want to leave her...
I have to leave you
I will bring Kathleen and Calista with me
I love them too much
I don't want to leave them
I don't want them to feel the same sadness that I am feeling
I am sorry
I am very selfish
Very very selfish and not considerate
But I can't leave on with knowing
Knowing that there is other women in your heart...
By the way, there is a consolation prize come
along with my death
I have nominated you for the CPF
It will be around $50,000.
Did you remember, what happened last time
when I think you are having an affair with Han Na?
If you have the slightest concern for me
It would have alarm you that what
is going to happen if you are with other woman
But you didn't care, did you?
You didn't take that seriously, did you?
Well, ciao.
When I saw this extract, I was seething with anger. Angry at the irresponsible behaviours of two adults which brought to the death of their two innoncent children. Angry at Mr Nicholas Oliver Prud'hon's infidelity. Angry at his insenstivity. Angry at Madam Yap for ending her life and her two daughters. Who gave her the rights to end her own life, let alone her daughters'? Everyone is given a chance to live a life and no one should have the rights to end anyone's life. Why did she choose to end her life instead of carrying on living for the better future of her daughters who she said are so dear to her? These are two precious young lives who have untold potential but to be ended just because of a Casanova father and a irresponsible mother. Madam Yap was 'nice' enough to leave $50,000 to her husband!! What the fuck is one going to do with $50,000? Can it soothe, never mind heal, the unbelievable pain, she had brought upon her family? Can it save the rocky marriage? More importantly, can it bring back the lives of the two young girls?!?! Sheesh, she does not deserved our pity. She may be the victim of a failed marriage, but ending the life of her daughters and herself doesn't make her a lesser devil than Mr Nicholas. In fact, I think it is worse. As for Mr Nicholas, I hope he had learnt his lesson on staying faithful. Because he had paid the ultmate price for it ----- the death of his two innocent daughters...
9:33 PM
For the first time since I started blogging, I starting this entry with basically nothing on my mind as to what's to be written. Mind is kinda blank at the moment and hopefully something might pops out while I'm typing my way thru... slowly... Blank, blank, blank, blank, blank, blank....
Oh, what the heck!! I can't think of anything to write... Writer-block?!?! Gosh, that sounds terrible! Maybe I should input some energy back into my life. Relaxing too much since the end of my exams...
OK !! Maybe a thank you to Jilian for writing a testimonial for me at Friendster....
Shit!! That was so lame...
Help!! Nothing is going thru my brain...
Brain-dead!!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????
10:26 AM
Yesterday attended Wensheng's grandfather's wake. As I was saying at my last blog entry, the trend of all this wakes of SD's loved ones is getting a bit spooky. Will be chanting very hard to put a stop to this. Get to know Sihui at the wake. A strange place to know a new friend... A cheerful gal. Was telling Yong Kang about the irony in life. At the wake, relatives are mourning for the departure of their loved one; 2 metres apart, people were singing happily away at a Karaoke Club session... Sadness and Happiness was happening simultaneously at such close proximity...
Heard from Red on Friday that Joey was being insulted by her male colleagues at work. That's was so fucking mean!! If I was there, I will be immediately in the state of Four Evil and gave those idiots a tight slap!! Can't believe such degrading words can come out of these so-called educated professional!! Obviously they failed badly at their Civil Moral... Bastards!! Its people like them that are causing a bad name for the male population as a whole. Wait... I think slapping is not enough... Maybe we should wring their heads off their necks!! Grrrrr!!!!
On a lighter note, congratulation to Lydia for getting a job. I'm still looking for mine and so I'm glad that Lydia's found hers and end her search. Hopefully it will be a good working experience for her. So happy to know that we will still be classmates when the new semester start. I'm so used to having you accompanying me for class that not having you with me in class will take some getting used to. I shall worry about that when that day finally arrived...
Just got the news from Roy himself that he's gonna offically change his Chinese name after gaining permission from his parents. Wondering what his new name will be. But I guess I will still call him Roy all the same!! Haha!!
Like to apologise to Leona for cancelling our supper outing because of the wake. I know you have been working really hard for your projects and studying for your exams. Promise to give you a treat once your exams is over!!
10:41 AM
Ever since my exams was over, I've been in the mode of total slackness; not physically but rather mentally. That's why it is only now that I start writing. Since exams ended, I had been arranging for job interviews and sending numerous resume, hoping to land myself in a job. I'm not exactly in a rush 'cause I want my next job be something of my interest and something which I can work for a long time on. Although I've been quite choosy about the job but its still better to get a job sooner rather than later...
Went to applied for a new passport on Wed. Although I have to cancel my original plan of going Bali due to the recent mindless and muderous sucide bombing, at least I can still go with my parents and their friends to Penang, a part of Malaysia which I haven't been to. Later that evening went to Ben's grandma's wake. Unexpectedly saw my neighbour who was there as one of the Buddhist members chanting prayer for Ben's grandma. Was talking to Red about the wakes we have been attending lately. Hui Hsien's grandfather, Mark's aunt and now Ben's grandma... It hasn't been exactly a smooth ride for some of our members of NTUSD. Hopefully this wouldn't become a trend.
Leona, I know you've been having a hard time lately, with your exams and the conditions of your Uncle. Don't be too self-depreciating. There are certain things in life which is beyond our control or is not to our plan and liking, but the important thing is to view these things as challenges in your life and not to take it too hard on yourself. If you have tried your best and have put in the effort, that will be good enough. As always, if you need someone to talk to, you can always approach me. I may not be able help you solve any of your problem, but at least I can be a listening ear or lent you a shoulder if you need it.
10:05 AM
Celebrated Joey, Peiyih and Red's birthday today!! Although their birthday falls on different days, due to their up-coming exams and belatedness of Peiyih's birthday, we've decided to celebrate all at once. When to Sakae Sushi at at Funan only to realise there wasn't any buffet on offer at that branch, after we've already eaten half-way!! Luckily it didn't turn out to be too costly in the end!! Later we went to Esplanade's Hagan Diaz. Had my first ice-cream for months. Was never a ic-cream fan (even though I don't dislike eating it) but I thought Swensen's taste better than Hagan Diaz. Red got a Liverpool away jersey as a birthday gifts, Joey a toy bucket full of soft toys and Peiyih got a sling bag and a Eeore from me. Like to say a big thank you to Red for the gift suggestion. Peiyih like that gift!! Save me a lot of trouble of thinking what to get for her. Haha!!
Monday's gonna be my last paper. So glad it will be over soon...
1:20 AM
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