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I believe in Hope and Faith.
With true Faith, Hope will comes.
With Hope, Faith will bloossm.
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Damn funny!! It is full of swearing, so if you're someone who will get offended by that, then leave it.
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6:15 AM
车辆的喧闹声,
像似在叮咛着忙碌的都市人,
千万不能停下脚步。
即费寝又忘食,
二十四小时不停为某事拼搏;
都市人还都是人吗?
空气中弥漫着紧张的气息。
犹如一个饱满的气球,
只要一触即爆。
为何人们却还能够生存呢?
难道只剩下一个躯壳,
灵魂早已出窍?
5:23 AM
This is a plea...
Please leave me alone for a while.
I need some time away,
From all the Hi's and Hello's and How-do-you-do's.
From all the genuine concerns
And sincere askings.
Yes, I'm pleading to all my friends out there...
Please leave me alone for a while.
I'm tired...
All of you have meant well,
But I feel drained.
I want to wake up and know that I've no comittment to anything or anyone.
I want to escape from the reality for a while.
For a while, not forever.
So please don't be unduly worried about me.
I'm not a kid and I know what I'm doing.
I'm not silly enough to throw away everything that are so precious to me,
And that includes you.
Neither am I crazy enough to do something stupid to hurt myself physically.
Never done it and never will.
I just need some breathing space,
As I begin my fight against my personal challenges.
Juggling work, assignments, exams, relationship, gakkai commitments, family and friends...
All at one go,
Is driving me nuts.
I suck at multi-tasking, so I simply decided to juggle less.
So I choose to drop gakkai commitments and friends.
I know I'm not exactly setting a good example as a leader,
But then again, who ever look up to me in the first place?
As for friends, I can't believe I'm doing that...
I just hope all of you will understand...
If you choose to forsaken our friendship because of this,
I will not blame...
Nor will I cry...
'Cause I'll know who are the real friends
And who are my dead-weights.
That will instead be a bonus for me.
I hate to have made this decision.
Not a pleasant feeling,
But a decision I had to make nonetheless.
I just wish all the assignments and exams end soon.
Then I can concentrate on the things that I truly enjoying doing.
To be with my friends.
Please be patient with me.
I'll be back.
Please don't bug me with another commitment for me.
I'll be more than glad to take it when I've more time.
Please stop your futile attempt to lure me...
I know your tricks from the very first words you utter to me.
Please stop telling me to challenge myself.
It is not as if I'm not doing that every single day.
All I ask is to have little more faith in me,
To trust me that I'm able to stand alone in this rough period.
Do not give me sympathy.
I've too much pride to accept that.
Just give me time and space,
And I will be grateful.
4:54 PM
Office politics.... Grrr!! Hate it!! And you know what's worse? I've been dragged into it when I'm not involved the whole time... I knew office politics exist in any working environment, but I've always tried to stay away from it unless necessary. Especially in my current job situation, where I don't see myself staying put for long. What's the use of playing politics in a workplace you don't see your future in? Its a waste of my energy...
Two of my colleagues, let's just called them A and K. And this is what happened....
K: Do you know the budget figures for division ABC?
A: (in a annoyed tone) Don't know!
K:Then how about division XYZ? Its also under your care.
A: Already told you I don't know! I don't know means I don't know. You go ask other people lah! It was never done by me.
(K called C over the phone)
K:.... cannot get the figures for you.
.... yeah, and she is very rude...
A: K! I where got rude?! You say I rude, you yourself not rude ah?! I already told you I don't know!
K: (After putting down the phone) You like that not rude meh?! I ask you nicely but you...
A: That's why I said I don't know already ma! I don't know how to tell you?! You like that say people not rude ah?
K: Okay! You think you not rude? Never mind.
(Then a long moment of chilling quietness)
After that, A, like most people after would do after a quarrel, started to look for her "allies" and complain and seek for assurance - the classic "I got wrong meh? You say lah, I got wrong meh?" Faintz!! I overheard what she said to her allies and it sure isn't nice. Stuffs like not going to help K in future and making things difficult for her are just things one will expect, and was indeed, heard from A.
K, on the other hand turns to me, unfortunately. She kinda thinks that I'm "on her side" when actually, I'm just a innocent by-stander. Well, mistake number 1. As long as you're in the office, unless is all for one (which is rare), otherwise you can NEVER be a neutral. You will be assumed to be belonged to "this camp" or "that camp" even if you're not.
Anyway, K also ask me the classic question, which I just simply nod my head or just sigh. The same thing applies for all the other questions she asked. However if you ask me how I really felt about the incident, I think they're both no angels.
A is foul-mouth and bad tempered. This is well-known by everyone in the office, including K. However, A never meant to be malicious in what she says. Its her character and just the way she is. K, on the other hand, is another weirdo. She tends say things that are rather unpleasant, even sacarstic, and she truly meant is as a joke and not an insult. Again, everyone in the office knew it. Some of the things she said to our colleagues makes me goes WTF?! She will always ensure that person it is a joke, but then the damage is already done...
So if you ask me how I feel? Well, A is wrong for being so "direct" in her reply to K. And to be true, she did sound rude. K should have known that is just A being her usual self and ignore it. But her utimate mistake was to bad-mouth A, in front of A. She should have known that A will be able to hear her tele-conversation with C. Man, A is like just sitting beside K, dammit! That is like so un-tactical lah! That is soooo inviting for trouble... faintz!
The whole incident is just plain silly and childish. And to think they are two of our most seniors colleagues, in terms of age. Just goes to shows how the silly squabble one will embroil in when you don't eye to eye with each other...
12:15 AM
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